THE DISSIDENTS - 25
听译 时间轴 saiqomo 校对 emfrosztovis 顾问 Joshua Winskowski
托马斯·艾略特：25岁 未婚 单身 参与早期民权运动
左翼积极分子 阿帕拉契亚人
辛克莱·戴维斯：38岁 已婚 幼儿园园长 无已知党派关联
安妮·戴维斯：35岁 已婚 家庭妇女
马克斯·莱恩：27岁 未婚 医院杂工 无已知党派关联
威廉·拉斯金：30岁 离异 作家 参加多个左翼团体
因逃避兵役于1958-1960年入狱 宣称因良心拒服兵役
彼得·斯坦：29岁 已婚 画家 纺织厂染工 无已知党派关联
黛德丽·斯坦：24岁 已婚 家庭主妇
迈克尔·华伦：30岁 未婚 陶艺师 无已知党派关联
兰德尔·凯茨：28岁 未婚 独立革命委员会成员
康斯坦斯·巴克：27岁 未婚 福利调查员
独立革命委员会成员 现与杰拉尔德·托勒同居
杰拉尔德·托勒：32岁 离异 参与早期民权运动
曾游历拉丁美洲 独立革命委员会成员
曾于1964-65年因袭警入狱
萨莉·科尔卡：22岁 未婚 服务生 无已知党派关联
现和丹尼尔·雷纳同居
丹尼尔·雷纳：28岁 未婚 参与早期民权运动
左翼积极分子 阿帕拉契亚人
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《边缘》
第一天
不
No.
你一点也不惊讶 朋友
You're not surprised, man.
我早就料到你会这样
I had you figured that way.
假设你把他解决掉
Suppose you get him.
会有什么不一样？
What difference will it make?
战争继续 一切照旧
The war go on, everything will be the same.
你知道的
You know that.
但如果你还记得我们说过的话
But if you remember what we said
这种话没有任何价值
this kind of talk doesn't lead any worth.
你想要的 是我们现在最不需要的
What you're thinking about is the last thing we need right now.
他在这里干什么 杰拉尔德？
Why is he here, Gerald？
好吧 你杀了总统
Okay, you kill the president.
你认为这会激起民变
You think that will radicalize people
让人们上街吗？
bring them out into the street?
这一点 你我都清楚
You know as well as I do about that.
我们仅存的几个成果也将被毁于一旦
What few good things we have going will be smashed.
他们会上钩 然后被摧毁 不是吗？
They'll be baited and then smashed, right?
我不明白我们为什么要讨论这个问题
I don't understand why we're talking about this.
你知道这些问题
You know the arguments,
我们都知道这些问题
we both know the arguments.
当然
Sure.
我们都知道所有的问题
We both know all the arguments.
听着 你想去散个心吗？
Look, do you want to travel?
我们需要有人17号去芝加哥一趟
We need somebody in Chicago on the 17th.
你感兴趣吗？
Are you interested?
也许你应该和汤姆说说
Maybe you should talk to Tom about that.
他在找事情做
He's looking for something to do.
我不会和你争论私人口角
Like I'm not gonna argue with you about personal confrontations.
这些都是废话 毫无用处
Those are bullshit terms, they are useless.
甚至不确定你是否相信他们
Not even sure you believe in them.
还不止这些
You know there's more.
-你想逞的另一个能 -谁想的？
-The other stunt you got. -Who thought?
你知道我跟谁谈过
You know, I talked to.
这不就是你告诉我的原因吗？
Isn't that why you told me?
这是一个糟糕的场面
It was a bad scene of.
我告诉他们
I told them…
我说你过得很艰难
I said you were having a hard time…
我以为你不是认真的
that I didn't think you were really serious.
当然 你错了
You were wrong, of course.
来吧 伙计
Come on, man.
他们想确保你不会采取行动
They want to be sure you don't go ahead.
他们要有绝对的把握
They want to be absolutely sure.
好吧 还有别的吗？
Okay, what else?
他们认为
They think that…
如果你是认真的 就应该阻止你
if you're serious, you should be stopped.
如果有必要 他们会亲手阻止你
And if necessary, they'll stop you.
是吗？
You did?
是的 我知道
Yeah, I do.
那你打算怎么办？
So what are you going to do?
你看
Look.
我觉得我们应该冷静一下
I think we should just cool down.
你是说 其他人提出想法
You mean, the others think.
你只是告知我 对吗？
You're just reporting this to me, right?
老兄 这是胡扯
Man, it's bullshit.
开会的时候
At the meeting,
我不知道 好像只有我一个人认为
I don't know, it was like I was the only person who thought
我们是在谈论某种幻想
we were talking about some kind of fantasy.
这个问题被夸大得不成比例
this thing is being blown up all out of proportional.
太愚蠢了
It's stupid.
所有这些言论都非常愚蠢
All this talk is very stupid.
如果我们忘记了我们所知道的一切 那就是这样
It is if we forget everything we've ever known.
是啊
Yeah.
你说的对
Yeah, you're right.
那你打算怎么办？
So what are you gonna do?
我不知道了
I don't know anymore.
在你做决定之前
Like we should talk more…
我们应该多沟通
before you decide.
是啊 我们得再谈谈
Yeah, we'll have to talk about it again.
彼得和我现在过去
Yo, Peter and I are going over now.
你确定今天不和我一起去吗？
You sure you don't want to come with me this day?
是的 我确定
Yeah, I'm sure.
还发生了什么事？
What is something else going on?
什么意思？
What do you mean?
听着 我刚进城 所以想见你
Look, I just got into town, so I want to see you.
听起来我已经在这里待了几个月了
Sounds like I've been around a couple of months
我想和你一样
I wanna do what you do.
我不会参加游行的
Well, I'm not going to the march.
我太累了
I'm too tired.
要不今晚我们在辛克莱那里见面吧
However, hm, maybe I will see you here tonight at Sinclair's.
你会去辛克莱那里吗？
You'll be in Sinclair's?
好
Yeah.
好的 再见
Okay, bye.
好吧 但我不明白你为什么不来
Okay, but I don't see why you aren't coming.
汤姆 我现在不方便说话
Look Tom, I just can't talk right now.
以后 我们有的是时间
Later, we'll have plenty of time.
好的
Okay.
回头见
I'll see you.
替我向莎莉问好好吗？
Hey, say hello to Sally for me. Will you?
好
Yeah.
好吧
Yeah, all right.
你要出去吗？
Are you going out?
是啊
Yeah.
你看到我的笔记本了吗 辛克莱？
Have you seen my notebook, Sinclair?
呃 在那边
Uh, over there.
嘿 丹怎么说？
Hey, what did Dan say?
Dan：Daniel（丹尼尔）的昵称
我也不知道 总之是个故事
I don't know, some kind of story.
什么意思？
What do you mean?
我不知道 辛克莱
I don't know, Sinclair.
我不太明白这些事情
I'm not making much sense out of these things.
即使对我自己来说 我也只是……
Even to myself, I'm just…
我只是四处转转
I'm just kind of buzzing around.
这就是我来这里的原因
That's why I came down here.
是什么？
What is it?
这就是我在街上的感觉
That's just the way I feel out on the street.
很少有人讲话
Little talking is done.
成千上万的人头撞在一起 都是战争的缘故 太疯狂了
Thousands of heads bashing into each other, all about the wars, are crazy.
-真是疯了-是啊
-Really crazy. -Yeah.
我知道 我明白你的意思
I know, I know what you mean.
我要去游行现场找彼得
I'm going on to see Peter at the match.
嘿 你知道你想在这待多久都可以
Hey, you know you can stay here as long as you want.
谢谢
Thank you.
谢谢 我们今晚在这里见
Thank you, I'll see you back here tonight then.
好的
Okay.
辛克莱
Sinclair.
辛克莱
Sinclair!
你吃过东西了吗？
Have you had something to eat?
有 我一直在偷拿你的无花果饼干
Yeah, I have…I've been raiding your Fig Newtons.
听着 我得跟你谈谈 这很重要
Listen, I gotta talk to you. It's important.
你现在想谈谈吗？
You want to talk now?
不 不是这里 天啊
No, not here. Jesus.
我们出去吧
Let's go outside.
什么事？
What's the matter?
我会在下午的某个时间过来
I'll come over during the afternoon sometime and…
我们
we'll…
好好谈一下
talk decently.
树林里住着一只蟑螂
In the woods lived a cockroach,
注：这是陀思妥耶夫斯基《群魔》第一部第五章里大尉朗诵的诗
他又老又有智慧
A cockroach old and wise.
有天他跳进玻璃杯
Into a glass one day he dived,
里面全是互相吞噬的苍蝇
full of cannibal flies.
蟑螂找了个位置
Room enough for cockroach needs,
苍蝇四处嘀咕
The flies all murmur…
大发牢骚
and rage,
「我们的杯子太满了！」
"Too full our glass!"
「朱庇特啊，我们的事迹配得上一个更好的舞台」
"our deeds, / O Jove, deserve a better stage."
正当他们大呼小叫
But while they clamour and rail
尼基福尔走近了这儿
Nikifor nears the place,
他又老又有智慧……
old and wise and…
-又老又有智慧 -马克斯真是个演员
-old and wise. -Max, the actor!
弓着背
And bent...
面色苍白
and pale.
这里更多的是……
It's more here with…
原文中没有更多的诗句 所以我加上了.
The original is... no extra verse, so I add it.
他拿起杯子倒空
He takes the glass and empties it.
倒进猪舍的热汽中
Into the pigsty steaming.
沉默着 生命躺在屎上
Silent, the life lies on the shit.
太害怕
Too scared…
太骄傲
or proud…
或者死得太透
or dead…
以至于不能尖叫
to scream.
真是首烂诗
It's a pretty crappy poem.
喂？
Hello?
你最近怎么样？你真的要……
What are you doing these days? Are you really, like, to…
嘿 丹 你好吗？
Hey, Dan, how you doing?
很高兴见到你
It's glad to meet you.
大家像这样聚在一起
Everybody together like this.
这挺好的 你知道
It's nice in a way, you know.
我没见到他们
Well I don't see them.
我忘了他们
I forget about them.
你现在家务活做得怎么样？
How's your houseworking now?
哦 很好
Oh, very well.
还行吧
Manage.
嗯 其实我不会干太久了
Um, actually won't be for much longer.
我也不知道是怎么回事
Well, I don't know what it all about.
我们想从人民联盟开始抵制征兵
We want to start out with union of the people to resistance the draft.
这样我们就可以组织大规模的游行 所以
A way in which we can make big demonstrations, so…
那些表示不参加的人
People who are saying they won't go...
不用坐牢
Won't have to go to jail.
我希望笼络女性 老人 各种各样的人
I wanna get women, older people, in variety.
我现在不能告诉你 因为
I can't tell you right now cause…
我真的不知道我要做什么
I don't really know what I'll be doing.
你还关心什么？
What else are you into?
你知道你还关心什么吗？
You know what else you take care about?
但要做的事还有很多
But there's a lot of other things to run on.
阿巴拉契亚山脉 密西西比河……
The Appalachians, the Mississippi...
但是..……
But, uh...
我还有多长时间？
How long do I have?
也许下周我可以告诉你
I could tell you next week maybe.
这很好 很好
That's good, sure.
我们还得等到开学
It won't be until the school starts.
你们现在稍微知道一点监狱里是什么样了吗？
Have you guys figured anything about what happens in jail a little?
这是个复杂的问题
That's a complicated business.
是啊
Yeah.
我的意思是 一方面 对于相关的人
I mean, on the one hand, for the people involved…
要么不进军队 进监狱
it's a matter of either you go to jail out of the army,
要么进军队 也等于进监狱
or you go to jail into the army.
所以
So…
还是去社会上的监狱吧
It's probably better to go to jail out.
这对我来说非常困难
This is very difficult for me.
不 是所有这些人
No, all these people.
还有你 你从哪儿冒出来的？
But also you. Where'd you come?
-想见你 -为什么？
-To see you. -Why?
我需要找人倾诉
I need somebody to talk to.
虽然你不像我
And while you're not like me.
但我觉得我可以和你谈谈
I feel that I can talk to you.
也许这就是原因 因为你太与众不同了
Maybe that's why, because you're so different.
你觉得我们能去大厅或其他地方聊一会儿吗？
Do you think we could go out in the hall or something to talk for a while?
我不会改变主意的
There's no changing my mind.
我已经想好了
It's made up.
我要杀了他
I'm going to kill him.
就是这么肯定
It's that sure.
这是绝对肯定的
It's absolutely sure.
我甚至也不再质疑我自己
I don't even question myself anymore.
你想让我对你说什么？
What you want me to say to you?
什么也不用说
Nothing.
你没有什么可以对我说
There's nothing you could say to me.
我只想让你听我说
I just want you to listen to me.
我现在需要找人倾诉
I need somebody to talk to right now.
我要你听我说
And I want you to listen to me.
他必须死
He's got to die.
而我要去达成这件事
And I'm going to do it.
我要去杀了他
I'm going to kill him.
他必须死 然后……
He's got to die and…
然后 我也必须抵命
And then I have to give my life to.
否则 这是无法想象的
It just isn't conceivable otherwise.
因为……
Because…
好吧 一命换一命
Well, a life for a life.
永远是这样
It's the way it's always been.
只有这样 我才能与他平起平坐
That's the only way that I can meet him as an equal.
我必须和他平等相见
And I've got to meet him as an equal.
你知道 我不可能赞成杀人
You know, I can't approve of killing.
-你为什么要告诉我？-我知道 我知道
-Why do you tell me? -I know, I know.
我找不到合适的理由
That I can't justify.
我只是要取他性命
I'm just going to take his life.
跟公平公正没关系
There's no justice there.
我杀他
I take it.
是为了他应当负责的那一切罪行和杀戮
For all the crimes, for all the killing that he is responsible for.
我就是要杀他
I just take it.
但我也必须偿命
But then I have to give my life.
我也必须死 因为……
I have to die too, because…
不这样的话 我只是另一个杀手
Because otherwise I'm just another killer.
谁杀了人还能全身而退？
Who kills and gets off?
你现在也没想好
You're not sure even now.
你当然有你的理由
Of course you got your reasons.
人们仍然不会理解
People still won't understand.
我知道
I know that.
我知道这毫无意义 没有任何意义
I know that it's senseless, that it won't mean anything, that…
这样做没有任何好处
That won't do any good.
我知道
I know that.
炸弹不会停止 战争不会停止
That the bombs won't stop, and that the war won't stop.
而且……
And that…
还有外面街上的士兵
And the soldiers outside in the street.
没有人会停止把他们送到那里去被炸死
But nobody's going to stop sending them over there to be blown up.
等我把他干掉 只会产生更多的恐惧
And when I blow him up, there's only gonna be more fear.
我知道
I know that.
在那之后 只会有更多的恐惧
Afterwards, there will only be more fear.
还有……
And…
厌恶
Disgust.
这会使民众反感
It'll disgust people.
就连你也会为之反胃
Even you will be disgusted, on it.
谢谢你听我说话
Thank you for listening to me.
我不需要从你这里得到任何东西 辛克莱
And I didn't want anything from you, Sinclair.
累了吗？
Tired?
是啊 累坏了
Yeah, exhausted.
马克斯一点也没让事态变简单
Max doesn't make it any easier.
我想 马克斯会掀起一场非常刺激的骚动
Max gonna made a very exciting, I thought, fermented...
杰瑞没把他杀了 我倒意外
Surprised, Gerry didn't kill him.
Gerry：Gerald（杰拉尔德）的昵称
我去给沙发上铺个床单
I'll put some sheets on the couch.
嗯 很好
Um good.
谢谢
Thank you.
-泡点茶？-当然
-Make some tea? -Sure.
嘿 我要去睡觉了
Hey, I'm…gonna go to sleep now.
……真的很累
Really wasted.
我们晚点睡 你不会在意吧？
It won't bother you if we stay up for a while, wouldn't?
我根本感觉不到的
I won't know a thing.
你们俩看起来很般配
You two look nice together.
你们两个人都非常非常安静
Very, very quiet, the two of you.
你们之间在发生什么小事？
What kinds of little things going on between you?
听着
Listen.
一个秘密
A secret.
人们总是试图让你担心
People are always trying to make you worry about...
哇
Wow.
比如说
Like,
以所谓的真情实感为例
Take what truthfulness or feelings for example.
无聊的是制造悬念
What's boring is inventing suspense.
我要告诉你一个很长很长的故事
I'm going to tell you a long, long story.
好吗？
Okay?
故事开始于
It begins…
这个神奇的穹顶里
Inside this magic dome.
每个人都在这里嗑药
Where everybody turns on.
懂吗？
See?
他们它们躺在狭小的囚室里
They lie in their tiny cells.
明白了吗？
Got it?
呃......
Uh.
瓷砖墙吧
Tile walls, I suppose.
模制的床
Molded beds.
非常舒适
Very comfortable.
还有他们的头
And on their heads...
想象一下
See?
他们穿着这些
They wear these…
柔软、洁白的小帽子
Soft, white, little caps.
算了 这不重要
Forget it, it doesn't matter.
好吧 杰瑞
Okay, Gerry.
我为什么不能相信你？
Why shouldn't I trust you?
你太……
You're...
靠不住
Erratic.
所以
So…
我来替你把关
I stand my guard with you.
是啊
Yeah.
我想 你每次遇到这种事 都会一意孤行
I figure you'll go your own way each time it comes to that.
我会的
Yeah, I will.
好的
Okay.
所以不要什么都告诉我
So don't tell me everything.
不要默认我会站在你这边
Don't assume I'll be on your side.
行
That's there.
那就是我自己的错
Then it would be my mistake.
也许什么也不会发生
It's probably not going to come up.
你想喝点汤什么的吗？
Do you want some soup or something?
不 不饿
No, not hungry.
什么都不吃？
Nothing.
不 我不用
No. I don't like.
辛克莱最后失态了
Sinclair was ugly at the end.
马克斯跟杰瑞吵了一架
Max picked a fight with Gerry.
我累了
I'm tired.
我要去睡觉了
I'm gonna go to bed.
我可以给她拿到学校里那个她想要的工作
I could get her job at the school she wants.
-她不会接受的，辛克莱 -为什么？
-She wouldn't take it, Sinclair. -Why not?
而莎莉 她对孰是孰非有自己的看法
And Sally, she has her own ideas about what is right for.
总之 她可能要回克利夫兰
Anyway, she might be going back to Cleveland,
她妈妈病了
her mother's sick.
重要的不是工作 她……
It's not the job that matters, she is…
她没事
She's all right.
你觉得她觉得自己被困住了 对吗？
Do you think she feels trapped, right?
你知道的不多 她……
Well, you just don't know much, she's…
她不是那样的人
She's not like that.
她不是这么想的
She doesn't think like that.
也许不是
Maybe not.
我第一次见到她时
When I first met her
我感觉她不能......
I had the feeling she couldn't, well…
照顾好自己
Take care of herself.
是的 但这是错误的
Yeah, but that's wrong.
只是表面上看起来如此
That's just the way it looks on the surface and all.
第二天
应该早点从派对走人的
Should have left the party earlier.
睡一天觉
And sleep all day.
倒不如去外面做点什么
Rather do something outside.
雨会一直下
The rain will keep up.
我们可以理直气壮地躺在床上
We can stay in bed with a good conscience.
琼妮六岁了
Joanie's six years old.
我前妻不让我见她 那个贱人
My ex-wife won't let me see her, the bitch.
你知道婚姻这回事
You know about the marriage.
当你离开某人时 你得放弃很多
You give up a lot when you when you leave someone.
这并非不愉快 是可以忍受的
It wasn't unpleasant, it's tolerable.
过了一段时间 我们才发现彼此的关系有多糟糕
Took a while to find out how badly we're for one another.
被推着走
Got pushed along.
违背你的意愿
Against your will.
我有时也会这么想
That's what I think about sometimes.
也许我不该离开她
Maybe I shouldn't have left her.
现在太晚了
It's too late now.
一切都结束了
It's all over.
只是想看看孩子 仅此而已
Just wanna see the kid a little bit, that's all.
愚蠢的安排
Stupid arrangements you made.
离婚
Divorce.
我没钱给她
I don't have any money for her.
她 她一个人过
She…she gets along by herself.
她自找的 因为这就是她得到的 你懂吗？
She asked for it, because she got it, you know?
两天前是她的生日
It was her birthday, two days ago.
我却见不到她
I didn't see her.
是啊.....我们大家围坐在一起聊了一晚上
Yeah, well… all of us sitting around this, talking all night.
迪迪在厨房里 彼得在染纱
Didi's is in the kitchen, Peter's dyeing yarns.
Didi：Deidre（黛德丽）的昵称
我在房间里
I'm in my room.
没有问题
No problem.
战争和一切烂事都在发生
There was war, was all this shit.
但人们不记得
But it's hard to remember it.
听你说话久了就觉得很无聊
Gets so boring to listen to you after a while.
我们现在都听过了
We've all heard it by now.
你也是这样
You too.
你认为一切都很好
You think everything's just fine.
世界从来就得是这样
The world, just the way it has to been.
快点 很晚了
Come on, it's late.
怎么了
What is it?
你不喜欢派对吗？
You didn't like the party?
因为吵架 马克斯？
The fight, Max?
你把我们当孩子 你想要自己的孩子
You treat us like children. Want to get your own kids.
找你丈夫要个孩子 这才是你想要的
Get your husband to give you a child, that's what you want.
你看起来很累 彼得
You looked tired, Peter.
我就是
I am.
我们今天在工厂染了一些紫色的纱线
We dyed some purple yarns of the factory today.
非常漂亮 有点像丝织品
Very beautiful, some kind of a silk twist.
我给你带了一条 你能用吗？
I brought you a skin, can you use it?
当然
Sure.
好极了
That's great.
我不想去想工厂里的你
I don't like to think about you at the factory.
为什么不呢？
Why not?
这不是你想要的
It's not what you want.
哦 是的
Oh, yeah.
这就是我想要的
That's what I want.
第8次
The eighth.
我几乎可以肯定丹要去刺杀总统
I'm almost sure Dan's going to assassinate the president.
我自己也有过同样的幻想
I've had the same fantasies myself.
幻想就是这样的
That's what they are.
虚幻的
They're unreal.
是弱点
They're weakness.
也许我也是如此 我不知道
Maybe it's in me, I don't know.
我只听到了部分对话
I only heard part of the conversation.
他们说话的声音很低 我听不太清楚
They were talking so low, I couldn't get all of it.
我只听见了几个字
I only got a few words.
我很害怕
I was scared.
我们怕什么？
Well, what are we scared about?
这些与我无关
There's nothing to do with me.
我来到这里是为了让自己恢复正常
I came out here to straighten myself out.
拒绝卷入丹的幻想
Refuse to get involved with Dan's fantasies.
是的 与此无关
Yeah, nothing to do with it.
反正现在不是时候
Not the time for anyway.
不会有任何好处
Wouldn't do any good.
换一个总统 和现在这个一模一样
One president'd be just the same as now.
.....这越来越令人困惑了
I don't know, it's…it's getting confusing.
然后就是懒散 惰性
And then just the laziness and inertia.
还有就是情感上的懒惰
And just the emotional laziness.
我试着写
I try to write.
一点用处都没有
Nothing at all useful.
自我放纵 假装做些什么来继续坚持下去
Self-indulgence, pretend something I do to keep going.
这是第五次
This is the fifth
所有令人厌恶的情绪都是一样的
All the same disgusting moods.
悲伤 安静 你知道 就像一个老太太
Sad, quiet, you know, like an old lady.
时间在流逝 睡眠让它变得更糟
Time is in flight, sleep makes it worse.
我的肌肉感觉像果冻
My muscles feel like jelly.
我太害怕了 甚至不敢打电话问乔妮怎么样了
I'm too scared, even to call up and find out how Joanie is.
生日快到了
That the birthday coming up.
这是第八次
It's the eighth.
现在几乎可以肯定丹会尝试刺杀总统
Now almost sure Dan will try to assassinate the president.
我也有过同样的幻想
I've had all the same fantasies.
嘿！
Hey!
你可以走了
You can go now.
电极尽量不要交叉 放在16号位置
Try not to cross the electrodes, and put it in number 16, please.
马克斯 你能把电极再往头发下面放一点吗？
Max, would you put the electrodes a little deeper under the hair please?
有什么东西
There's something.
是什么？
What is it?
我怎么再也看不到了？
How come I don't see anymore?
是什么？
What is it?
也许是丹？
Dan perhaps?
该死
Damn.
就是丹
Dan's right.
好吧 这是真的
Well, it's real.
你认为是这样吗？
Do you think it is?
天知道 我不知道
God knows, I don't know.
你能不能……不要坐在那把椅子上？
Would you…would you not sit in that chair, please?
那是我的
It's mine.
-我的椅子 -坐在床上
-My chair. -Use the bed.
你知道如果这是真的
You know if it's real.
你也会被抓起来的
You're going to get busted up too.
我不这么认为
I don't think so.
我认为是这样
I think so.
你真的认为
Do you honestly think
你说自己与此事无关 他们就会相信？
they'll believe you when you say you weren't involved?
你坐过牢 知道吗？
You have been in jail once, y' know?
马克斯 我该怎么办？
Max, what am I supposed to do?
在一边待着 等着事情发生？
Snub my ass and wait till something happens?
那他就会去做吗？
So he gets around to it?
疯狂 太疯狂了
Madness, hopefully, it's insane.
这是一个陷阱 就是这样
It's a trap, that's what it is.
这就是丹想要的 把我们都拉下水
That what Dan wants, to pull us all along with them.
抵抗运动 哦 那就不一样了
A resistance movement, oh, that will be different.
只有人民才能把他们带到那个层次
Only people can bring themselves to that level.
但孤立的恐怖主义行为 我不参与
But isolate acts of terrorism, I have no part of.
继续 你的下一步是什么？
Go on, what's your next step?
我为自己的想法感到羞愧
I'm ashamed of thinking.
-说吧 我至少得说实话 -我没法说
-Go on, I got at least be honest. -I can't talk about it.
别把自己藏起来 好吗？
Don't try to hide yourself, will you?
没用的
It doesn't work.
瞧 我知道你在想什么
See, I know what you're thinking.
是啊 你知道我在想什么
Yeah, you know what I'm thinking.
对
I do.
你在想……
You're thinking…
我怎么做才能阻止他？
How can I do this in such a way that he'll be stopped.
-对吗？-不对
-Right? -No.
-对吗？-不对
-Right? -No!
好吧 没关系！
Well, it's okay!
听着
Listen.
我 我们该怎么办？
I…what should we do?
我应该告发他吗？
Shall I turn him in?
我可没在想这个
I'm not thinking of that.
别傻了
Don't be silly.
还有你
And you.
你现在不会报警吧？
You… you wouldn't call the cops now, would you?
我可没想过这个
That's not on my mind.
是你说的
You put it there.
所以你是想过的
So on your mind.
不过 我知道你连这个胆量都没有
But see, I know that you haven't the balls for even that!
你知道你在做什么吗 比尔？
You know what you do, Bill?
你坐着
You'll sit.
你等着
And you wait.
你会把自己吞噬殆尽
And you'll eat yourself up.
也许还会把自己的那点感受录下来
And maybe you will tape little accounts of your feeling.
还这样做吗？
Still do that?
看 我想起来了
See, I remember it.
嗯
Um.
你知道 如果我决定这么做的话
You know, if I decide to do it.
我会的
I will.
-你会吗？-我会的
-Will you? -I will.
-你会吗？-等着瞧吧
-You will? -You'll see.
-和其他时候一样吗？-等着瞧吧
-Like all the other times? -You'll see.
这么做
What good…
对你有什么好处？
is it gonna do you?
有什么好处？
What good?
扣动扳机后
And after you pull the trigger.
按下按钮后
After you press the button.
你会和谁共进晚餐？
Who would you have dinner with that?
彼得
Peter.
去你妈的
Fuck yourself.
-你以为这种事是朋友之间的私事吗 -去死吧
-Do you think that kind of things remain private between friends… -Go to hell!
你和我之间？
Between you and me?
第三天
你气色不错 安妮
You're looking good, Anne.
辛克莱看起来对他的学校很感兴趣 伙计
It's Sinclair seems pretty excited about that school of his, dude.
但对我来说 弄懂他在想什么
But it's not as easy as it used to be for me, uh…
不像以前那么容易了
To find out what's on his mind.
你知道他现在有多安静吗？
You know how quiet as he is now.
不知道你对我们有什么看法？
I wonder what you think about us.
所有人都来你家
All these people coming through your place.
我只能睡在沙发上
I got sleeping on a sofa.
都是辛克莱的老朋友
All the Sinclair's old friends.
为什么？
Why?
我在想这些人
I'm thinking about all these people.
我们已经到了一个必须……
We're getting to the point where we're gonna have to…
必须分道扬镳的时刻
gonna have to go in these different directions and…
呃......
Uh.
其实我想的是辛克莱
Really what I'm thinking about is Sinclair.
因为当我和他说话时
Because when I talk with him,
我不知道他在哪里
I don't know where he is.
我不知道他在想什么
I don't know what's going on in his mind.
他是……
Is he…
他是不干了 或者怎么样了吗？
Has he pulled out or something?
不
No.
他没有退出
He hasn't pulled out.
是啊 可能是我在想自己吧
Yeah, it's just probably me just thinking about myself.
我一直在四处奔波
I've been running around a lot
和所有人谈论
talking with all these people
他们不同的计划和项目 之类的东西
about their different plans and projects, and stuff.
这让我摸不着头脑
And that leaves me up in the air,
因为我没有考虑任何特别的事情
because I'm not thinking about any particular thing
比如我要做什么
like what am I going to do.
或者 你知道 怎么去结束战争
And you know, the end of the war.
或者 我投身做的事情到底有没有用处 你懂吗？
Or am I going to put my body what will be really useful, you know?
但是
But.
辛克莱在想什么？
What does Sinclair think about?
因此 甚至是辛克莱……
So it was even Sinclair.
我不知道
I don't know if, uh.
我在这里格格不入
I'm out of place here.
彼得
Peter!
来了
There!
嘿 你好吗？
Hey, how are you?
很好 我很好
Good, I'm good.
很高兴见到你
Good to see you.
好极了
Great.
我正想到你呢
I was just thinking about you.
没什么事吧？
Nothing's the matter is there?
不 不 没关系
No, no, it's all right.
你确定一切都很好
You're sure. Things are all right.
没什么问题
Nothing's wrong.
一切都好
Everything's all right.
没问题
No problem.
听着 我能给你一些我今天拿到的钱吗？
Listen, can I give you some money I got paid today?
当然 你拿够了？
Sure. You got enough?
是的 当然
Yeah, sure.
让我们看看
Let's see.
在这里点清楚
Check right out here.
我拿这些
Me hold on to this.
你拿这些
You hold on to that.
-好的 -很好
-Okay. -Good.
那些华盛顿来的家伙 你知道吧？
Those guys from Washington you know,
杰瑞那些人？
Gerry and those guys?
我跟他们说了一点 对
I mentioned a couple of things, yeah.
你说了……
You talk about…
你的计划？
Your plans?
是的 我说了
Yeah, yeah, I have.
但你不用担心 因为
But you don't have to worry because…
我的意思是 我没有提到你
I mean, I didn't mention you.
你提到我了？
You mentioned me?
不 我没说 没人知道你的事
No, I didn't mention, nobody knows anything about you.
你怎么告诉他们了？
How come you told them?
还是以前的老习惯
Old habit from before.
还记得吗？
Remember?
这并不是什么明智之举
That's not all that wise.
我已经不知道这样做是否明智了
I don't know anymore whether it was wise or not.
你为什么把我卷进来？
Why did you drag me in?
你
You.
我想我说过 要让你参与进来 你还做不到
I guess I told you to get you involved's a little over your head, I'm afraid.
我们走走吧
Let's walk.
好吧
Yeah, okay.
别把我扯进去
Just leave me out of it.
听着 我受够了那些行当
Look, I'm through with all that craft.
你知道 有时候一个人会思考自我
You know, you think about yourself sometimes.
想知道自己的价值
Trying to figure out what you're worth.
什么活着
What's alive?
什么死了
What's dead?
是啊
Yeah.
那你就想想我吧
Well, then you try thinking about me.
你想过我在哪里吗？
Do you ever think where I am?
想过我现在的感受吗？
What I feel now.
我的意思是 现在
I mean, right now,
你不可能知道我在想什么
you just can't know where I'm at.
你无法体会我的感受
You can't know what I feel.
因为以前我什么都不是 我是死的
Because before I was nothing, before I was dead,
我读了这么多书 说了这么多话
before I read all the books, and I talked to all the people,
我做了一切我应为的
and did all the right things,
我做了爱 以及其他种种
and I made love and the whole bit,
但我是死的
but I was dead.
我就像一块石头 什么都不是
I was just like stone, I was nothing.
现在不一样了
Well, it's not like that now.
就这么回事
That's over.
这并不重要 不是吗 彼得？
It doesn't really matter, does it, Peter?
我们有时会惹上这些麻烦
All these shit we get into sometimes.
也许不是
Maybe not.
动动你的腿
Move your legs.
你在挤我
You're squashing me.
我有时很喜欢这样
I like it so much sometimes.
不过 我从来不知道什么时候会这么特别
I never know when it's going to be so special, though.
这就是你
That's just you.
把你的小嫩肉挪过去
Pull that tender baby flesh.
哦 好疼 哦
Oh, that hurts, oh.
嘿 挪挪地儿
Hey, move over.
不 你挪挪地儿
No, you move over.
哦 你挪挪地儿
Oh, you move over.
待会儿我能帮你修剪胡子吗？
Can I trim your beard later?
我觉得不行
I don't think so.
我要让它长到膝盖
I'm gonna let it grow to my knees.
这样他们就不会让我去任何地方了
That way they won't let me in any place.
来吧 我们去海边走走
Come on, let's walk to the beach.
你觉得我的脸在变化吗？
Do you think my face is changing?
你还没有回答我的问题
You haven't answered my question yet.
是的 我有
Yes, I have.
某种意义上
In a way.
某种意义上
In a way.
好吧
Well.
你和彼得怎么样了？
Oh, how's it going between you and Peter?
这算什么问题？
What kind of a question is that?
我不知道
I don't know.
我不知道我应该期待什么 你知道吗
I don't know what I should expect, you know.
彼得变了
Peter's changed.
或许我只是觉得他变了
Or maybe I just think he's changed.
也许只是我看待他的眼光变了
Maybe I just see him differently.
我和彼得之间怎么样了
How is it going between me and Peter?
无论是怎么样
You know most of it by now.
你现在已经知道大部分了
Whatever there is to know.
好吧 黛德丽
Well, Dee.
Dee：Deidre（黛德丽）的昵称
我们谈了很多
We talked a lot about it.
但对我来说......还是很模糊
But it's… still very fuzzy to me.
什么意思？
What do you mean?
你为什么嫁给彼得？
Why are you married to Peter?
这一切是怎么回事？
All this?
不
No.
告诉我
Tell me.
我还能做得更好吗？
Could I have done better?
我不确定
I'm not sure.
听着 我得去换衣服了
Listen, I've got to get dressed.
我要去工作了
I'm going to work.
它们都是彼得的
They're all Peter's.
都是彼得做的？
Peter did this?
是啊 很久以前的事了
Yeah, a long time ago.
什么时候？
When?
去年
Last year.
彼得以前在这里做了很多作品
Used to do a lot of work here.
但他停了下来
But he stopped.
把东西就留在了这里
He just left the stuff here.
丹喜欢它们
Dan likes them.
我一直在想你和丹
I've been thinking about you and Dan.
经常想到丹
Think about Dan a lot.
也想到你
Think about you too.
我在阿巴拉契亚的时候
When I was down in Appalachia,
我想让他去那里帮忙
I was trying to get him to come down there and help out.
但他连信都不回
But he wouldn't even answer the letters.
他不想再回到那里
He doesn't want to go back down there.
是的 我能理解
Yeah, I can understand it.
我在那的时候有点郁闷
It was a little depressing I was down there.
我知道
I know.
但几个月后 又来了两个新人
But a couple of months later, two new people came in.
然后
And.
他们开始投入大量精力
Put a lot of energy into it.
我认为情况开始发生变化
And I think that things started to change.
他告诉我 他认为这不会有什么结果
Well, he told me he thought nothing would ever come of it.
哦
Oh.
他知道这需要很长时间
He knows it gonna take a long time.
但对我来说最重要的是
But the important thing to me
当地的那些人……这些事情
was that the people that live down there, like… the whole thing.
他们……觉得这会很好
They… they thought it was gonna be good.
他们投入了很多精力
And they were putting their energy into it.
丹在做什么？他在做任何事吗？
What's Dan doing? Is he doing anything?
是啊
Yeah.
他经常不在家
He's been away a lot.
他现在很累
He's very tired right now.
因为他在为某个组织筹款
Because he's raising money for some group.
你知道是为谁筹款吗？
For who do you know?
不 我不知道
No, I don't.
是的 我不明白之前是怎么回事
Yeah, I don't understand that what used to be.
一起亲密无间地工作
Working pretty close together.
你呢？你在做什么？
How about you? What are you doing?
我没事
I'm fine.
你有工作吗？
Do you have a job or something?
我做服务员
I work as a waitress.
嗯
Yeah.
再多说点
More about it.
在一家餐厅
At a diner.
工作难做吗？
Is that hard?
不
No.
有时候 我回到家已经筋疲力尽了
Sometimes I get home pretty beat.
但那些人都还好
But those people are alright.
好吧 那你……一切都还好吧？
Well, you… everything's all right then, huh?
嗯
Hm.
你是说和丹？
Do you mean with Dan?
是说和他
Yeah, I mean with Dan.
但我特别想问的是你
But I mean, with you particularly.
是的
Yes.
你为什么一直在问？
Why do you keep asking?
只是.....
It's just so…
很多和我交谈过的人
A lot of the people I've been talking to...
似乎都渐渐失散了
just seem to be drifting away.
就像彼得 他……
Like Peter, he…
放弃了画画
drops the painting.
直接放弃了
It just quits on it.
啊啊 这只是……
Uh, that's just some kind of…
我心态不好
bad mood I get into.
我不想让你有这种感觉
I don't want to make you feel that way.
有时 我开始觉得一切都开始崩溃
Sometimes I just start feeling like everything is falling apart.
你知道 真的
You know, really,
想一想你认识的那些还在做事的人
you think about the people that you know who're doing things.
这是一些很刚强的人 他们会……
There are some strong people in there, it's gonna be…
是的 是在这个名为「人民意愿」的组织之后
Yeah, it was after this group called the People's Will.
People's will（Наро́дная во́ля）：19世纪俄国的一个左翼组织
他们从城市离开
They gone...
去到农村 试图把人们组织起来
down into the country to try to organize people.
离开城市
Left the city.
克鲁泡特金称之为「74年的疯狂之夏」
Kropotkin call it the mad summer of seventy four
1874年
Eighteen seventy four.
他们想做的一切都被破坏
And everything that they tried to do just got busted up.
每个人都被逮捕和通缉
Everybody was hunted down and arrested, and…
就像一整代人都被消耗殆尽一样
It was like a whole generation of people just getting used up.
所以 这就是极好的
So it's going to be really nice.
来吧 我坐下
Come on, I'll sit down.
哦 是的
Oh, yeah.
是的 听听这个
Yeah. Yeah, listen to this:
米哈伊洛夫是一个经历过整个事件的人
Mikhailov was this guy who been through the whole thing.
他说
He said.
告诉普列汉诺夫的妻子
Told Plekhanov's wife:
我喜欢在人群中工作
I love the work among the people.
我准备不惜一切代价继续下去
I was ready to carry it on at any cost.
但在专制统治下 我们却无能为力
But we are powerless to accomplish anything under the autocracy.
我们的所有人都会白白牺牲
All of our people will perish without results.
而我们只有一个选择
And we have only one alternative.
要么放弃革命活动
Either to give up revolutionary activity.
要么以分散的个人行动向政府进攻
Or engage the government in single combat.
我们有足够的力量和英雄气概
We have enough strength, heroism.
自我牺牲的能力 选择后一条路
Capacity for self sacrifice to follow the latter course.
米哈伊洛夫这样的恐怖分子
These terrorists like Mikhailov,
他们用一些漂亮的词来形容杀人
They have some pretty fancy words for killing.
那么
So.
在那之后
And after that,
他们把他单独监禁了16个月
they put him into solitary confinement for sixteen months,
16 个月 而他并没有崩溃
and he didn't crack up.
当他们开始杀害同组织的朋友时
And when they started killing off his friends who were part of the group,
然后他说
then he said...
他要求得到同样的对待 要一起被杀
He demanded to be a part of it now to be killed himself too,
他没有试图脱身
and he didn't try to get out of it.
还开始有人自杀以示抗议
And uh, other people started killing themselves as part of a protest.
我能想到人们这么做的唯一原因是
And the only reason I can see for people doing that is because…
他们相信 如果他们为这项事业献出一切
they believe that if they give their whole life to the thing,
这会释放出很多新的能量
it's going to release a whole lot more energy,
也解放更多曾经害怕的人
and more people who used to be afraid.
呃 我说起这些恐怖分子 不只是因为
Uh, I'm not talking about the terrorists just because…
你知道 他们到处杀人
You know, as people who just go around killing other people
我不……呃
I don't… um.
你知道 我肯定不会
You know, I'm sure not gonna be…
被逼着做这种事 我很确定
forced into anything like that and I push that far.
嗯
Um.
我也没看到周围有什么沙皇
There's no... I don't see any czars around.
但是
But.
呃.....
Uh,
他们所做的 就是把他们所相信的东西……
What they did was they took something that they believed,
他们 他们
and they... and they...
把这变成了自己的全部生命
they turned it into something that came out as their whole life.
他们决定要为自己的信仰做出牺牲
They decided they have to make a sacrifice, for what they believe.
他们就这么做了 并且做到了
And they go ahead, and they make it,
他们不是说「这很疯狂
and they don't decide "That's something crazy
那我来做做这件事」
and I can go do that stuff."
他们说……
They say...
我自己也不知道 我的想法
Now I don't know myself, my ideas...
会不会比我们现在发生的事情要好
would be any better than what we have going on right now.
我想到了战争
I think about the war.
战争正在进行
War is going on.
战争是坏的
And war is bad.
好吧 你会怎么做？
Okay, then what do you do?
我不知道该怎么办
I don't know what to do.
我不知道该采取什么措施
I don't know what steps to take.
我不知道如何去做我认为应该做的事
I don't know how to take what I believe should be done
并让它 你知道的 让它发生
and make it, you know, happen.
甚至不倾向于相信我所知道的是真的
Don't even tend to believe what I know is true
我保留着一些幻想
And I…keep some nice dreams.
然后我说 这些正在发生的坏事
And I say these bad things that are happening,
其实并没有发生
they aren't really happening, you know.
或者 如果他们 你知道
Or if they, you know
看起来似乎真的在发生
it seems to me they're really happening
我等了一段时间
and I wait for a while,
而不是......你知道的
and doesn't… you know.
它就消失了 不是吗？
It fades away, doesn't it?
整个冬天都没人去那里
Nobody's been there all winter.
也许我们可以再出来呆几个星期
Maybe we can get away for a few weeks again.
这里会很不错的
It'll be good out there.
我想知道你在想什么
I wondered where you were.
我想也许你要去见丹
I thought maybe you're going to see Dan.
我本来要去的 但奇了 我不敢去
I was going to, strange thing, I was afraid to.
你知道……
You know…
我真的觉得他们每个人都如此陌生
I really don't know any of them anymore.
我认不出他们了
I don't recognize them.
可你本来认识吗
Well, should you?
好吧 我很惭愧
Well, I'm ashamed.
我只是站在那里 努力倾听
I was just standing there trying to listen.
我什么也没能给他们
I don't give them anything.
噢 你知道的 只是……
Oh, you know, just…
老生常谈 想到什么说什么
platitudes, whatever comes into my mind.
我不知道自己到底变了多少
I wonder just how much I've changed.
我觉得他们在另一个世界
I guess I think they're in another world.
也许你做不了什么
Maybe there's nothing for you to do.
在乡下 我差点就这么想了
In the country, I almost came to that.
我想 如果我可以相信……
I thought if I could believe…
丹不是认真的
Dan wasn't serious,
好吧 那我就可以留下来
well, then I could stay.
如果警察来找你问丹的事情 你打算怎么说？
What are you gonna say when the police talked to you about Dan?
莎莉怎么办？
What are you gonna do about Sally?
你打算怎么时候做？
When are you going to do it?
很快
Soon.
你一个人去？
You going alone?
这有什么区别？
What difference does that make?
你走之前会告诉我的 对吧？
You'd tell me before you were going, wouldn't you?
我想 我不知道该怎么做
I didn't know how to be, I guess.
我以为会有更多的人
I thought there would be more of us.
我以为会有很多人 我们可以……
I thought there would be people and we could…
谈谈我们在想什么
talk about what we were thinking.
或者我们在做什么
Or what we were doing.
我以前不明白
I didn't know.
不明白我会是孤单一人
I didn't know that I'd be alone.
工厂那里那件事我很抱歉
I'm sorry about what happened out at the factory.
你知道的
You know that.
看 你还有其他事情要考虑
Look, you've got other things to think about.
你结婚了 对吧？
You've got marriage right?
-对 -你有个妻子跟你一起
-Yeah. -Well, you've got a wife that you're with.
拜托 你知道的 我结婚了也没什么
Come on, you know, my marriage makes no difference.
取决于我怎么想
It's up to me, but I do...
你有一份好工作
You've got a good job.
不知道为什么 你……
And I don't know, you've got....
你这么内疚
You've got all this guilt and…
我甚至不能再谈论它了
and I can't even talk about it anymore.
听着
Listen.
我满脑子想的都是怎么重新行动起来
All I think about is how I can get moving again.
这次已经停顿很久了
It's been a long time this time.
是啊 也许我曾经想利用你
Yeah, maybe I've tried to use you.
好吧 我很抱歉
Okay, I'm sorry for that.
这意味着我刚刚把你拒之门外
It means that I've just shut you out.
迪迪怎么样了？
How's Didi getting on?
不太好
Not so good.
纠缠不清什么的
Tangled up or something.
嗯
Yeah.
啊
Ah.
这是一段奇怪的时光
It's been a strange time.
是的 我明白
Yeah, I understand.
那家工厂的工作一定很奇怪
That factory must be strange work.
-你和那里的人谈过？-你是说谈组织活动？
-You talk to people there? -You mean in organizing?
不 我去做我的工作
No. I go and I do my job.
有些人也许会自告奋勇
Some might come up.
拜托 别用这种语气跟我说话
Come on, don't use that tone with me.
没事的 我只是以为你在找人
It's okay. I just thought you were looking around.
你需要地方住吗？
You need a place to stay?
不 我还是要在辛克莱那里住几天
No, I'm still stay in with Sinclair's for a couple days.
那么 你的钱是怎么来的？
Well, then how you're getting money from?
钱？我没钱
Money? I don't have any money.
辛克莱很慷慨
Sinclair has been generous.
哦 是的
Oh, yes.
汤姆
Tom.
你以为我疯了 坐在这里捏盆子？
You think I'm crazy sitting here turning out pots.
不 你为什么这么想？
No, why do you think therefore?
海滩太棒了
The beach is fantastic.
我们要回去 你来吗？
We're going back and you come?
我也想去
I'd like to come.
我马上就来
I'll be along in a few minutes.
过一段时间 你就会有自己的想法
You know, you get your own thing after a while.
有时候 我们应该尝试把我们的工作结合起来
Sometime we ought to try combining our work.
嗯
Mm.
我曾经试着做过一个碗
I tried making a bowl once
在佛蒙特州普特南的一个人那里
at this guy's placed up in Putnam, Vermont.
结果 做出来就像一个涨起的肿块
It was like a... came out like a swollen lump,
像什么疾病一样
some kind of disease.
你想现在试一下吗？
You want to try one now?
我做不了
Em. I can't do that.
会做出东西的
Something will come out.
没事
It'll be okay.
我可以帮你烧制
I can fire it for you.
回头再说吧
Sometime, maybe.
也许我们会把东西吃完
Maybe we'll finish our dishes.
当然
Yeah sure.
然后 我又有新的事情
Then I get into some new things.
马克斯玩弄我
Max played with me
就好像我是他手里的线头
as if I were the end of a string.
好吧 他为什么不呢？
Well why shouldn't he?
我爬向他
I crawled to him.
我乞求着「告诉我一切都好」
I came begging: tell me it's all right,
「这样什么事都不用担心 帮帮我」
so not to worry about anything, help me.
马克斯能帮我
Max can help me.
我知道丹已经过了这个阶段
I know Dan's gone through with it.
他会用其他美好的幻想来充实自己
He'll stuff himself with other fair illusions.
我们的弥赛亚
Our Messiah.
他会把我们一个接一个拖下水
He'll drag us in one after the other,
然后我们就会被抓
and we'll get busted.
这个国家就是幻梦 无论如何
It's all dreams, this country, anyway.
你所做的一切只会反噬你
Everything you do just coming back to hurt you.
永远只停留在幻想中
it never gets past your own head.
又懒又笨的人
Lazy, stupid people.
还有其他所有人
And all the others.
我们所有人
All of us.
疯子
Crazy people.
我不知道
I don't know.
但汤姆总是胸有成竹
But Tom always has plans.
巨大的空中楼阁计划
Great castles in the sky plans.
漂浮 俯冲的计划
Floating, swooping plans.
所以他才会有那种神情 你知道的
That's what gives him that look you know,
好像他没有把注意力放在你身上
as if he's not concentrating on you.
是的 我吸得神志恍惚
Yeah, I made a pot look a disease.
我们都说得太多了
Everybody sure talk too much.
来 用我的杯子喝一杯
Here, have a drink out of one of my cups.
不行 你们说了那么多我的坏话
No, not after all that crap about me.
这儿 拿着
Here, take it.
不 汤姆不是那样的人
Nah, Tom's not like that.
彼得知道什么对他有好处
Peter here, Peter knows what's good for him.
他坐在那看着
Sits and looks.
是啊 像个灯塔一样
Yeah, like a jolly lighthouse.
不 我记得我们正走在这条路上
No, I remember we're walking down this road.
而这家伙是从他的农场出来的
And this guy comes off his farm.
又老又胖 拿着猎枪的狠角色
Old, fat, tough bastard with a shotgun.
「给我滚出去」
Get the fuck out of here.
你知道的 就是那些吓唬人的话
You know, all that jive.
所以我害怕得要命
So I'm scared out of my head.
但汤姆还在那儿说 「拜托」
But Tom still: Come on!
「我们不是来找麻烦的」
We're not looking for trouble.
「路那边的罗西小姐
Miss Rosie up the road there,
「她说你酿的酒是这里最好的」
she says you make the best booze around here
噢 我对他知根知底 我见过他妹妹
Oh I know all about him, I met his sister.
她告诉我他心地善良
She told me he had a good heart.
如果你带我们进去 我们就完蛋了
If you took us in, we got smashed.
-不 房间在旋转 -是啊 我注意到了
-No, the room's spinning. -Yeah, I notice.
厨房桌子上有几条腿？
And with how many legs up on the kitchen table?
一条 两条还是四条？
One, two, four?
彼得整个人几乎都到了厨房的桌子上
Almost all of Peter on the kitchen table.
彼得
Peter!
来吧 彼得 现在还有很多事情要做
Come on, Peter, it is much more to do now.
让开
Move over.
啊 是的 我的姑娘 坐下来 放松一下
Ah yes, my girl, sit down and relax.
让自己休息一下
And rest yourself a bit.
我很高兴你能来
I'm so glad you came.
我们都在这里
That we're all here.
-好吧 -闭嘴
-Okay. -Shut up.
大家都这么开心 这么温暖
All happy and warm.
一切看起来都……
And everything seems to…
我不知道 但就是这样
I don't know, but that's it.
好吧 就当是我的浪漫主义吧
Okay, call it my romanticism.
-这是个温暖的房间 -是的 没错
-It's a warm room. -Yeah, right.
♫ Somebody to Love, sung by Jefferson Airplane（1967） ♫
来吧 我们走好吗？
Come on, let's go. Okay?
丹！丹！
Dan! Dan!
那我们今天做什么？
Well, what are we gonna do today?
我要回去睡觉了
I'm going back to sleep.
我们去海滩？
Well we go to the beach?
你想和他们一起去吗？
Did you want to go with them?
这就是我要跟他们说的
That's what I'm talk to them.
最近是不是没听到你打字？
Haven't heard you typing lately?
你不打字了？
No more typing?
好吧 现在同样也没人看书了
Well, no one's reading anymore either.
没错
That's true.
来吧 那你想做什么？
Come on, what do you wanna do then?
我要回去睡觉了
I'm going back to sleep.
-来吧 我们去海滩 -不
Come on, let's go to the beach. -No.
我想拍几张照片
I want to take some pictures.
我不上相 宝贝
I'm not photogenic, babe.
-来吧 -别这样
-Come on. -No, come on.
-求你了？-不要
-Please? -No.
当时我还没说完 他就打断了我
And he cut me off before I was finished back then.
马克斯说 忘了丹吧
Max says, forget Dan.
为什么老是想自保？看着就好笑
Why keep trying to save your skin? It's funny to watch.
哦 不 这很有趣
Oh, no, that's funny.
我在努力挽救我仅剩的生命
I'm trying to save what's left of my life.
我会成功的
I'm gonna make it.
「你的生活？」他疯狂地大笑起来
"Your life? " He laughs with crazy laughings.
是的 我的生活
Yes, my life.
在这些人下面我受够了
I've had enough shit below these people,
就像丹一样 否认自己、
like Dan, deny themselves,
牺牲自己……
sacrifice themselves…
都解体了 不是吗 威尔？
All dissolved, isn't it, Will?
Will：Willian（威廉）的昵称
理论 书籍 甚至工作
Theories, books, even work.
你那时候 为这些事情付出了很多努力 不是吗？
You work pretty hard for things like that in your time, didn't you?
这一切都已在建造过程中解体
That's all dissolved in build.
正在解体
Dissolving.
希望你现在能看一眼你自己
Wish you could see yourself now.
每个人都会死
Everyone always dies.
他们要么死 要么坐牢
They die, or they go to jail.
监狱让你崩溃 吞噬你的生活
Jail cracks you up, swallows your life.
我愿意做任何事
I'll do anything.
我很害怕 你说得对
I'm scared, you're right.
我不会去掺和 我为了什么？
I'm not going in, for what?
为了一场八千里之外的战争？
For a war eight thousand miles away?
为了这里的一些穷人？
For some poor people here?
又不是我
Not me.
没人在乎我们 生活一如既往
Nobody gives a shit about us, life as usual.
他们想杀人？
They want to kill?
让他们去杀呗
Then got him kill!
这就是可怕之处
That's the horrible thing.
监狱
The prison.
人都是随心所欲的
People are just what they want to be.
为什么要为他们做任何事？
Why do anything for any of them?
让他们见鬼去吧！
The hell with them!
墙是他们建的 就让他们建完吧！
They start the wall, let them finish it!
丹尼尔认为他会用他的方法
Daniel think he'll solve something
解决一些问题 对吧？
with what he's way of working, huh?
全都解体了 不是吗？
All dissolved, isn't it?
-我不会进监狱的 -全都解体了
-I'm not going to jail. -All dissolved.
我只是正式通知你
I just might tell in form.
听上去令人高兴 不是吗？
And it pleases to hear that, doesn't it?
你为什么不退出呢？
Why don't you come out of here for anyway?
你能做什么？
What can you do?
闲情逸致 狗屁
Idle interest, bullshit.
你喜欢看我是吧？别客气了
You like to watch me, uh? Don't care here for.
你不想听新闻？
You don't want to hear the news?
不 我不想听新闻 不
No, I don't want to hear no news, no.
那你想谈谈吗？
Do you wanna talk then?
你想谈什么？
What do you want to talk about?
关于你现在在做什么
About what are you doing now.
我没法认真讲 汤姆
I just can't go into it, Tom.
我可不想跟你争吵
I don't want to get into some kind of a hassle with you.
是的 我能理解
Yeah, I can understand that.
但我喜欢和你一起工作
But I like working together with you.
我们弥补了彼此的盲点 这让我很稳定
It kept me pretty steady in that we made up for each other's blind spots, you know.
是的 是的 我知道
Yeah, yeah, I know.
但我现在的情况 真是……
But what I'm into right now.
太可怕了
It's…just pretty scary.
我们一起工作的时光 仿佛已经是五十年前
Our working together, it seems like fifty years ago.
你也不认为 我们现在能重新一起工作
And you don't think that if we can have it again now.
为什么？
Why?
你打算怎么办？
What are you gonna do?
你要组织抵抗征兵吗？
Are you gonna organize draft resistance?
我只是在心里想想而已
I just thought it in my mind.
我不知道该不该这么做
I don't know whether I'll do it or not.
就好像
It seems like…
事情沿着一条笔直的路发展
it leaves on a straight line,
尽头要么是出国 要么是进监狱
either right outside the country or right into jail.
我不确定自己是否准备好了
And I'm not sure I'm ready to do that.
是的 我明白你的意思
Yeah, I know what you mean.
我今晚要去见杰瑞 下定决心
I'm going to see Gerry tonight, make up my mind.
你对组织游行示威有什么看法？
What do you think about doing a counter work?
现在 我想我没法告诉任何人该怎么做
Right now, I don't think I can tell anybody what to do.
人们尽其所能
People do what they can.
很多人会被粉碎
A lot of people are going to get smashed up.
也许这只是一种浪费 我也不知道
And maybe it's just a waste. I don't know.
是的 没错
Yeah, that's right.
听着 汤姆 我很抱歉
Look, Tom, I'm sorry about this.
听着 我们的关系时好时坏已经很久了
Look, we've been closed on and off for a long time now.
我们可能会在某个时刻重回正轨
And we probably get back on out of the track sometime.
也许吧
Maybe.
明年 当我再次来到这座城市时
In next year when I get down there, this city, again.
是啊 明年吧
Yeah yeah. Next year.
这两个人 就是运煤车后面的两位不速之客
The guys are the two guests over behind those coal trucks.
你看到他了吗？
You see him?
是啊 是啊 我明白
Yeah, yeah, I see.
那些混蛋随时都可以杀了我们
Those bastards can kill us anytime they want.
那个条子杵在那儿 好像他们隶属于他一样
And the cop standing here like he owns them.
他们看起来也不打算等了
They don't look like they're going to wait either.
你和史蒂夫谈过了 对吧？
You talked with Steve, right?
是啊 是啊
Yeah, yeah.
他们试图在换班时封堵矿井
They are trying to block the mine shaft on the shift changes.
那边怎么样？
What's it like over there?
情况不妙 他们会被消灭掉的
That's bad, man. They're gonna wipe this out.
看 看那边
Look, look over there.
他们开始关闭大门
They are starting to close the gates.
看起来他们直接开始殴打这个家伙
They look just starting to beat on this guy.
好吧 我们走
Yeah, okay, let's move.
好吧 我去史蒂夫那边
Okay, I'm going over to Steve.
你怎么会在这里？
How come you're here?
有什么问题吗？
Something wrong?
不 没什么问题
No, nothing's wrong.
你看起来很累
You look tired.
今天有很多人
There're a lot of people today.
我好冷
I'm cold.
你看到他们把他关在哪个牢房了吗？
Did you see what cell they put him in?
我想他大概在下面两个牢房
I think he's about two cells down.
也许是三个左右
Maybe three or something like that.
你的腿怎么样了？
How's your leg abandoning mess it up?
我不知道 它越来越麻了
I don't know. It's getting numb.
感觉有点像一块木头
Feels a little like a piece of wood.
给你 一条毯子
Here, it's a blanket.
也许我们可以做个夹板什么的
Maybe we can make some kind of splint or something.
我想还可以更好
I guess it could be better.
现在已经没有多少人了
There aren't many people anymore.
或者是没多少钱之类的
Or there isn't much money or something.
反正他们也花不出去
They're not spending it anyway.
我已经开始习惯这场战争了 我猜
I'm getting used to the war, I guess.
你为什么会在我工作的时候找我？
Why did you meet me at work?
真好
It was nice.
让我很开心
Made me happy.
我正是为了这样才做的
That's why I did it.
让你开心
To make you happy.
我拧不开这个盖子
I can't get the top off.
给你
Here.
把它给我
Give it to me.
让我来
Let me do it.
你认为
What are you…
辛克莱这个人怎么样？
think of Sinclair?
你喜欢他吗？
Do you like him?
当然
Sure.
为什么这么问？
Why do you ask?
我只是想知道 你和他相处得好不好
I was just wondering if you and he got along.
仅此而已
That's all.
我想是的
I guess so.
我不太喜欢她 但是……
I don't like her too much, but…
他挺好的
he's all right.
当然
Sure.
是啊
Yeah.
我们在街上 然后……
We were around on the streets and…
我想每个人都感觉有点疯狂
I think everybody feels a little crazy.
我想离开这里 走人 好吗？
I want to get out of here and get going, okay?
好吧 我给你弄辆车
Okay, I'll get you a car.
如果你能尽快拿到 我明天就去芝加哥
If you get it quick enough I'll go up to Chicago tomorrow.
我在这座城市巡游够了
I had enough of walking around this city.
很好 但你真正认为可行的是什么？
Good. But what do you really think is possible?
问题是要让人们有事做
The thing is to keep people moving.
如果这些人不想加入抵抗征兵联盟
If the group doesn't want to join the Draft Resisters' Union,
那就尝试让他们
try to get them to do something
在自己学校里干点什么
on their own campus,
静坐 等级抗议
sit-in, ranking demonstration.
Ranking demonstration：不详
不管他们要做什么
Whatever they get going.
我可以做到这一点
I can do that.
我认识那里工作的大多数人
I know most of the people there that are working.
那么几周左右你就应该到加州了
Then you should be in California in a couple of weeks or so.
也许我们会任命一些新的组织者
Maybe we have a few new organizers appointment.
我自己没钱了 能给我点钱吗？
Is there any money at all? Because I don't have any myself.
是的 我们会管好车的
Yeah, we'll take care of the car.
油钱和其他开销
The gas, the expenses.
你可以和人们待在一起
You can stay with people.
那我就去加拿大
Say, then I'm going up to Canada
吃着剩饭剩菜 和人们谈话？
to talk to the people through the leftover?
是的 他昨天去温哥华了 所以……
Yeah, he went up to Vancouver yesterday. So…
看看会有什么事
See what's up.
你看到丹了吗？
You seen Dan?
他在干什么？
What's he doing?
是的 我今天下午见过他
Yes, I saw him. This afternoon.
他是...
What was he…
他怎么了？
What was happening with him?
我不知道
I don't know.
他自己在做一些事情
He's doing something on his own,
但我不知道是什么
but I don't know what it is.
我要去睡觉了
I'm going to get some sleep.
听着 几周后你就在加州了
Look, you're gonna be in California in a couple of weeks.
我们可能会在那里见面
I'll probably see you there.
是的 你要休假？
Yeah, you're gonna be a pause?
是啊 不然我都不知道自己在哪儿了
Yeah, or else I don't know where I am.
好的 再见 祝你一切顺利
Okay, see you, you‘d be good.
你要出去吗？
You going out?
是啊
Yeah.
是啊 我得出去了
Yeah, I have to go out.
我还有些事情要做 要花点时间
I have some things to do and they're gonna take a while.
所以你最好睡一觉
So you better get some sleep.
好吗？
Okay?
晚安
Good night.
我累了
I'm tired.
我都没考虑过这一点
I didn't even think of that.
我想
I thought.
因为我以为我根本不用睡
'Cause I thought I wouldn't need any sleep.
我没给睡觉留时间
I didn't leave any time for it.
莎莉……
Sally…
莎莉对这一切一无所知
Sally doesn't know anything about all this.
我没告诉她 那你会.
I didn't tell her.
所以你可不可以
So would you…
去她那里 把事情告诉她？
go by and talk to her.
我就不解释你能做什么了
And I don't explain what you can.
管它呢
Whatever.
你知道的
You know…
就在刚才
A moment ago,
还非常清晰
It was very sharp.
一切对我来说都非常明确
Everything was absolutely clear to me.
然后
And then...
事情变得模糊起来 你知道的
And things got fuzzy, you know.
你出现了
You got in the way.
然后我就糊涂了
And I lost it.
但现在已经不重要了
But it doesn't matter now.
听着
Look.
别这么做
Don't do it.
现在……
Now, uh…
对不起 我……
I'm sorry that I…
我一开始就告诉过你
I told you in the beginning.
我真的很抱歉
I'm really sorry.
也许我……
Maybe I…
也许我是想让你劝我放弃
Maybe I wanted you to talk me out of it.
但我也不知道
But I don't know.
但现在那一切都结束了
But all that's over now.
这也是没有用的
And this is useless.
第六天
从来都是这样
It's always been the same.
首先是父母
First parents.
然后是学校
Then schools.
垃圾工作
Bad jobs.
现在是这个
Now this.
我们得到的都是什么啊
Whatever we got.
你认为我们应该怎么办？
What do you think we should do about it?
你认为我们应该分开吗？
Do you think we should split?
也许我该走了
Maybe I should leave.
你怎么看？
What do you think?
你以为我不会走吗？
You think I won't go?
这是我能想到的最容易的事情
It's the easiest things I can figure out.
一些锅
Some pots
两三个锅
Two or three pots.
一套餐具
A set of dishes.
够买粘土了
It's enough to buy clay.
很好
That's good.
不 这不够好
No, that's not good enough.
反正你已经支付了这里的大部分账单
You already pay most of the bills here anyway.
我不喜欢这样
I don't like it.
我喜欢自己付钱
I like to pay my own way.
这样可以避免
That way you avoid…
怨恨
resentments.
没有怨恨 伙计
No resentments, man.
事情没那么简单
It's not that simple.
啊 太疯狂了
Ah, that's crazy.
算了吧 无所谓了
Forget it. It doesn't matter.
不 你忘了吧
No, you forget it.
我来接
I'll get it.
心情不好？
Bad mood.
嗯哼
Uh huh.
你为什么不跟我说话？
Why don't you talk to me?
你想让我给你讲个故事吗？
You want me to tell you a story?
当然
Sure.
我不太会讲故事
Uh, I'm not too good at stories.
反正我也不想听
I don't really want to hear one anyway.
我们为什么不打开收音机呢？
Why don't we turn on the radio?
我知道是谁死了
I understand who is dead.
我告诉过你他死了
I told you he's dead.
他们确定？
They sure?
杰瑞给每个人都打了电话
Gerry has been calling everybody.
他真的要刺杀总统吗？
Was he really gonna assassinate the president?
我只知道我所听说的 好吗？
I just know what I heard, okay?
他说演讲进行时警察试图抓住他
He said that the cops tried to grab him while the speech was going on.
有一场打斗 我不知道
It was a fight, and I don't know.
不清楚
It's not clear.
丹开枪自杀了
Dan shot himself.
他是一个人吗？
Was he alone?
我想是的
I think so
我们本应和他在一起？
We supposed to go with them?
你怎么会这么想？
What makes you think that?
我们会有什么事吗？
Is something gonna happen to us?
你担心吗？
Are you worried?
是啊
Yeah.
我只是在想...
I was just thinking…
他们是如何发现的
how they find out.
他们知道吗？
Do they know?
我不知道
I don't know.
看看他们是怎么抓住他的
And see how they caught him.
他们对他有怀疑还是怎么的 我不知道
They are suspicious or something, I don't know.
他为什么要自杀？
Why did he shoot himself?
你们可以花很长时间聊他打算做什么
You can talking about what he was going to do for a long time.
不是吗？
Haven't you?
你们两个聊来聊去
Both of you talked about.
而他去了那里
And then he went down there.
你们不知道今天会发生什么吗？
Didn't you know what was going to happen today?
不是我干的
I didn't do it.
那可不好说
It wasn't really sure.
简直不敢相信
Couldn't believe it.
但我转念一想 也许
But then I thought perhaps…
他第一次遵循了自己的直觉
he followed his instinct for the first time.
我的直觉
My instincts.
哦 我受够了这一切
Oh, I'm sick of the whole thing.
我喜欢丹
I liked Dan.
是的
I did.
我们只是聊天 你知道 我聊天
We just talk, you know, I talk.
你为什么不走？
Why don't you go?
别在我眼前晃悠了
Stop playing around with me.
现在都结束了
It's all over now.
你不会那么做的 对吗？
You will not do that, did you?
是你干的 是不是？
You did, didn't you?
是你！
It was you!
是你！
It WAS you!
我不觉得你应该去华盛顿
I don't think you should go down to Washington.
让我去 看还有什么要做的 好吗？
Let me go down and see what else to be done, alright?
好吧
Alright.
就待在这里
Just stay here.
就今晚
Just for tonight.
明晚回家？
Go home tomorrow night?
是的
Yeah.
我之前和杰瑞谈过
I talked to Gerry earlier.
他说 可能会有一些问题 但是
He said, there probably be some kinds of problems, but...
也没什么
nothing too much.
这取决于很多因素
Well, it depends on a a number of things.
是的 等我去了那里 我会了解更多
Yeah, I'll find out more about it when I get done there.
-你会给我打电话吗？-嗯
-Will you call me? -Um.
我也会给莎莉打电话
I'll call Sally, too.
大家都还好吗？
Is everybody all right?
哦 是的
Oh, yeah.
我很抱歉
I'm sorry.
彼得在哪里？
Where's Peter?
他开面包车走了
He took the van.
我坐公交车来的
I came in on the bus
他说他要去加利福尼亚
he said he was going to California.
就这样？
Just like that?
差不多吧
Well, almost.
不 不是真的
No, not really.
太傻了
That's silly.
其他所有人
Where's…
在哪里？
everybody else.
迈克尔在工作室
Michael was in the studio.
我不知道他是否听说了丹的事
I don't know if he heard about Dan.
还有比尔 我没看见他
And Bill, I didn't see him.
我自己进来的
I just came on in by myself.
彼得几个小时前就走了
Peter left hours ago.
你在这里工作多久了？
How long have you been working at here?
我到这里很久了
I've been out here a long time.
自从我听说丹的事之后
Ever since I heard about Dan.
我想 我们应该去试试
I thought we should go down and try to…
把他的尸体运回来
bring his body back up here.
是的 应该有个人去吧
Yeah, somebody should.
我想 这就是我现在要去做的事
Well that's what I'm going to go do now, I guess.
对
Right.
我回来后可能就见不到你了
I probably won't see you when I get back here.
我马上就去芝加哥
I'm going right out to Chicago.
好吧 我会在这里待上一段时间
Well, I'll be around here for a while.
几个月吧
Couple of months.
只要钱还没花完
As long as the money holds out.
我想比尔和我可以照顾他一段时间
I guess Bill and I could take care of him for a while.
这一切太不幸了
It's too bad about all this.
我还是走吧
I better be going.
好的
Okay.
也许你可以把迪迪的东西打包带进城去
Maybe you could pack up Didi's things and take them into the city.
什么时候
Sometime.
某个时候
Sometime.
好吧
Alright.
能做什么就做什么
Do what you can.
我今天没什么好的事情做
I don't have many nice things to do today.
再见
I'll see you.
再见
Bye for now.
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